i lied.. i don’t know what i want anymore, i don’t even know whats going on in my own life. soo if someone can please figure it out, let me know. i’m begging you. my feelings and emotions are different everyday. i hate it. i just need out of here :( i missss my best friends <3
i think i finally figured it out..
finally, i think i figured out what i want, and if i liked this kid i talked about in my last post or not. i think i might. is it okay too? :( considering i won’t see him for a few months. He makes me happier than when i talk to any other guy. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. he understands my sarcasm. He calls me cute names. BUT he also lives like eight hours away now, ugh. i guess...
i have a dilemma.
alright.. i don’t even know how or where to begin. i haven’t talked to many of my friends about this, only one. one who is like a sister to me and even she couldn’t help me out in this situtation. she couldn’t even help me figure out whats going on. she couldn’t even help me put my mind at ease, so i guess what i’m truly looking for right now, is someone to...
the other day i spent an hour or more typing out this huuuuge post. and i went to post it later and now i can’t retrieve it. fuckkkkk. i’m not retyping it. this blows. -____-